Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Martha's Regret Playlist

I'm not a fan of regret.

Not because of this: "I don't regret anything because everything that's happened has made me who I am today."

That answer is a crock of shit. There are a million and one ways my life could be better or worse of. The universe of possibilities is so explosive I give myself a migraine just thinking about it. Every time I hear someone parrot the above line, I want to stab myself in the eye. But moving on...

I'm not a fan of regret because it involves a fair amount of sitting around and feeling sorry for yourself.

But hey, I'm human. (Shocking, I know.)

And sometimes I sit around feeling sorry for myself.

This event is usually triggered by a beautifully written story or song.

In fact, I have a whole host of songs on my playlist designed to get me into a regret frame of mine so I can write about some character's pansy ass emotions.

Here are my top songs to get in the mood:

Go ahead. Sit back. Hit Play. Feel shame and sorrow for your life's choices. What else are you going to do on Hump Day?


L.G.C. Smith said...

As ever, M., you are unique and I wish I were more like you. Me and pity parties go way back. I only started getting bored with them when I was...well, older than you are now. And that weak "don't regret your mistakes because they made you who you are now" thing? That actually helped me grow up a little.

But I'm over it now. Fortunately. :)

Sophie Littlefield said...

wow martha, thanks for the excellent playlist.

i've worked hard as an adult to excise self-pity from my innards. I don't think I had a lot to begin with - I come from pretty determined stock - but i have to say I think it's just about the worst waste of time and emotion. i have always admired for your git'er-done spirit. sometimes we don't feel it on the inside, but acting on it can bring change. i really believe that and it's a key lesson i'm trying to exemplify for my kids - and i think it's working.

Sophie Littlefield said...

also, LGC - i am REALLY proud of you for tackling some hard things and keeping that "Onward" spirit in mind.

Martha Flynn said...

Haha, I don't mean that "I don't regret anything because everything that's happened has made me who I am today" is a bad philosophy, just that, when I start to think about it, I start to think about the million ways I could be better or worse, and all those possibilities, and then the universe of multiverses that could exist...and then my brain hurts a lot. It hurts so much.

Rachael Herron said...

Oh, Kate Bush. I think I'll go cry in a corner somewhere now.... (jk) (mostly)